Well, I can’t understand
How a rational man
Could admit to this,
But somewhere inside
There’s a visceral cry
For something more than this.
So is it a stone or a beating heart?
Is it oil on canvas or work of art?
A hunger for meaning that’s more
Than a trick of the mind?
Or am I a note in a beautiful song,
With a great Orchestrator who says
At the side of the road
Where the lavender grows
There’s a hint of you.
In the smile of surprise,
In the look of the eyes,
Just a glimpse of you.
A mystery pulses beneath the skin,
With places and times where the layers are thin;
Oh, give me the courage to dig through
The mud and the mire
To find what’s been calling me all along,
A Love that embraces and says
So I called to the sky,
And the whispered reply
Sounded next to me.
He was here all along
Through the rain and the sun
Watching over me.
And I’m learning to walk in the paths of grace:
It’s not where you are, it’s the way you face.
The past is behind, and the future
Is safe in His hands.
There’s joy in this knowing and being known,
And I may be a pilgrim who’s far from home,
But I know where I’m going and where
A performance song about the road to Christ
The title track of my 2014 album, this song also goes by the title “Diary of an agnostic”, and is a performance song tracing the path of someone discovering Christ simply through observation of ourselves and the world in which we live, and how it points to the inescapable truth of God and His nearness to every one of us.
There are many people who, while rejecting church and formal expressions of religious faith, nevertheless recognize in themselves a leaning towards the spiritual, and for many the pursuit of this path leads them to Christ. I often use this at “evening with…” gigs in the hope that it will help guests who are on this journey.